Inside an Accident
Time is strange during an accident. It seems to go very slowly and I seem to be in a different world. What takes just split seconds seems to me to be a slow paced thought process with hyper awareness. In two accidents I seemed to be floating through air and I knew if it would be ok or bad before it finished.
For me that time seems to split into physical time (too fast to be aware) and mind time (where the brain is so fast the physical time seems slow). In the mind time I find myself talking to myself. I seem to assess the situation and decide if the outcome will be ok or if it will be bad. I've been in both.
16 years ago - Riding my bike I found myself up high in the air looking down at the brick road below and said to myself, "oh, oh, this is going to be bad". I was at tipping point where time was slow and I was aware of what was about to happen. I fell, it didn't hurt until after. I broke my hip and my elbow. I went to the hospital and had an operation to insert a pin and plate and six titanium screws.
Last week I found myself out of control in my car on the highway. The car went left then right and when it was going down the highway sideways, I said to myself, "oh, oh, this is too far I am at the point of no return, I cannot get out of this spin". I was completely without any control of what was going to happen. I headed into the ditch and kept sliding sideways not knowing which way I was going. It all happened quickly but in my mind I had a lot of time and I felt instantly that I would be alright. Then the car flipped over and I still thought I would be alright. I was alright and I was very calm through the whole experience because I knew that I would be ok.
Here's the strange thing. If I was consciously talking to myself, then that implies that two people are present, one talking and one listening. In an extreme moment where mental time speeds up so much that it seems to be slow or stopped compared to the outside physical time of what is happening, then how is it possible that I am living inside two different time speeds. Who or what part of me is talking to me? And how does that part of me know whether this will turn out ok or badly before it happens?